Hear No Evil

Do you ever wonder why there are bad people in the world?
Do you ever wonder why out of nowhere there's suddenly a mean person up in your face?
Do you ever wonder why you are related to vile, cold-hearted people?
Well, I think it's because it's God's way of showing you first hand what evil is like when made flesh. It's His way of telling you " This is not how I want you to be like." These people who are mean have a choice not to be mean but somehow that is the choice they've made. It's like in the movies when there's an angel and a demon on each side of your head whispering to you to do good and evil respectively. Obviously mean people listen to evil and become one of the devil's minions on earth.
I mean, so many times I have wondered what did I do to be related to someone so vile? It is really sad that we can't chose our family, there are relatives I like and don't like. When I am around relatives I don't like, it makes my skin crawl knowing that we have the same blood running through our veins! Yuck! That's why I choose my friends carefully, I never tried to be Miss Popular. I always looked out for friends who are of good quality, I don't care about the quantity at all. They could be just 4 or 5 friends and I'll be happy as long as they're good people. Sometimes these sorry individuals makes you want to scream and shout and take revenge for all the pain they caused you. But then i always remember my original thought on why God put them in this world...do NOT be like THEM! Do not stoop down to their level, do not even give them the time of day. They are unavoidable, especially relatives, you will cross paths with them some way, somehow. When I do find myself around them, I have this mantra in my head that goes " you are better than this, you are better than this". It takes a lot of will power not to be a bitch and lash out. Sometimes all you can do is lock yourself in a room and cry it all out. The inner bitch will come out sooner or later but I try to keep it contained as much as I can, after all we were all made in God's image, and even if we are not as perfect as Him, well we should at least try to be.
What I usually do when someone gets to me and I can't control my emotions any longer is just give in. Be angry, be sad, be depressed, cry, scream, write your heart out, sing you heart out and the best way i guess is to laugh your heart out! Succumb to any form of emotion at least, never bottle it up because it will slowly kill you, and then you'll end up just like those despicable people in your life. In other words, try to be the better person. When you try to be the better person, you remain true to yourself. But if you follow the path of these sad and ugly people, then you lose yourself along the way until you completely don't know who you are.
It happened to me before, I was consumed by anger and before I knew it I felt so lost and empty. Trying to change for myself and for my daughter was the best thing I've done in my life, it saved the both of us from a life of pain and suffering.
So, lesson learned: Listen to the angels and say goodbye to the demons.